Todays thought...Who can I trust?

Trust. What is trust? Can you trust yours special someone with your heart? Can you? Can you trust your friend with your heart? Can you trust your best friend with your darkest secrets? Can you trust your parents with your life? Can you trust anyone with your life? Can you trust your friends for the truth? Can you trust your husband or wife with your life or your heart? Can you trust them with your darkest secrets? Can you trust your boss to tell you when you screw up when it happens instead of when you get your review? Can you trust yourself not to get stupid every once in a while?

I don’t know. I’d like to think that I can trust my friends with my heart. I know I can trust my best friends with my darkest secrets and the truth. I know that I can trust my special someone with my heart. I feel like I can trust my boss and I know that I can trust my special someone with anything that might confront us. But alas I have to ask, can I trust myself not to get stupid? The answer is simple. No.

Now why is that? Why is it that I can trust my husband with my heart and my darkest secrets, I can trust my friends with the truth and my best friends with my darkest secrets, but I can’t trust myself to not get stupid? Why is it, that I have my own insecurities about anything that might rear it’s ugly head? Why do turn into an absolute smart ass when I get into an argument with someone? Why do I push people’s buttons until I get the screaming and the yelling and the door slammed in my face? (Not in the literal tense mind you...but metaphorically speaking.) Why do I do this to myself? Why is it so easy for me to turn into Queen B? Why do I constantly ask the question why? Can anyone tell me?