Todays thought...Catchup on missed blogs, and a very special day.

First off to the catching up. Haven't been able to blog much lately because of surgery. Went good, just my knee. Nothing major...feels great now. Great surgeon. Saturn is doing wonderful. Had to go back home. Have to admit I cried when she said Good-bye. I know she'll be back, its inevitable...but like when my Floor left for out of state to live, it killed me inside all the same. She said she was going to leave so she didn't start crying and I thought (just as I did when Floor left), if I just go quickly, it will be ok. I won't cry, she won't cry...you know...good. Right? Well I made it to about my second step and the tears came. But as I said, she'll be home. Soon enough for good.
Then on to my mama. She's doing good. Work is work. Her cochlear implant is working better and better every day. I'm so proud of her. So much has happened this year and it's only September. My cousin moved from home in a different state practically to the other end of the country. I will reffer to him as Frog. (Hope you don't mind Frog). He's going to college to do something with Scuba Diving. I say, Hey, if it's what you love...go for it. I wish I would have. But then sometimes I'm glad my life didn't go in a different direction. If it had, I wouldn't have the love of my life, much less the awesome friends I have. Its so easy to think about what might have been.

And more recently...I just talked to Appre and found that her son is enlisted in the military. He is being given orders soon. If you see this one day soldier...I told your mom to tell you...from a free American...Thank You. For giving your time to go over there and fight for truths that you hold dear and mean that much to you. Thank you for going over there so that your mom (And her awesome friend) can have the freedoms to experience and enjoy the simple things in life. Like putting your feet in the sand at the beach and letting the sun kiss your face while the light ocean breeze blows through your hair. Thank you for giving up your freedom for a little while, so that we can enjoy ours.

Too on that note...I have to give a special prayer and shout out to the people that are suffering from the wrath of Katrina. These were every day people like you and me that lost everything. Know that there are people all over this great world tonight praying for you and donating things in the hopes that one day you can get your lives back on track. We're all pulling for you and if you need anything...just ask. We have outstreched arms for all of you. It may not mean a lot...but a big hug to everyone out there. You'll be fine. Keep your chin up and pray. You will make it through this tradgedy and be better for it. I know it may not seem like it now, but one day, you will notice that you have become that better person for it. It's a real eye opener to even see something like that take place when it doesn't affect you directly. To those that it did directly affect, keep looking for that silver lining. Its there. And behind it, the doors to a better tomorrow. To the families that lost loved ones in this whole catastrophy, my heart truely goes out to you. I know what it's like to lose family...but know that they are in a better place. I know it may not make it any easier, but they are not hurting at all. Nor suffering, or anything. Know that they will be waiting for you when it's your time to go.

On that note...today is a very special day. I am just recently finding out myself that today is my grandma's birthday. My grandma passed away when my mama was 11. So there was no chance of me knowing her, much less my mama really knowing her. Or for that matter, my grandma knowing her beautiful daughter, that turned into the best mama in the world. I know she watches from heaven. I sometimes feel her watching me. But at times, I really wish she could be here to just see the family. To see the times when my mama and I bust out laughing at nothing. The times when we swoon over Chuck Norris on the TV. The times when we cry on eachother (Usually making the other one cry too) when we need a shoulder. The times when we enjoy an opera together so out of place in one building that we can't help but love the attention for being different. The times when my writing makes me cry...and I know when my mama reads it, she's going to too.

Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday...Dear Grandma, Happy Birthday to you. Thank you for not believing the doctors. If you had, my mama wouldn't be here today. Nor would I. I love you, and you are greatly missed.

Well, I have successfully made myself bawl writing this blog entry and guess this is as good a place as any to say Good-nite.

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