Today's thought...Titanic in 3D!

Okay so ya'll know I'm like real close with my mommy. Well one of my favorite memories was going to see Titanic in the theaters with mom when it came out in '97, the first time. Now you have to understand, prior to this, mom used to make me watch old movies. And when it first started it was like "Come on mom! I don't wanna watch this stupid black and white movie!" - Of course now black and white movies are my favorite, from the old love stories, Shirley Temple movies, down to the fifties horror flicks. But one of the ones she made me watch was The Unsinkable Molly Brown. She told me this story about the movie and who she was and that piqued my interest. So when it came out with Leo and Kate, we were all about it.

Well, we watched it twice the theater. Bawled our eyeballs out each time of course. So of course when James Cameron came out and said they were putting it back and in 3D, and we had the opportunity to be in the same state, I told mom right away that I wanted to see it with her. It's only fitting. So before I left, we went, just me and her, and watched it in 3D. Let me tell you, it did nothing for the bawling! LMAO! It was so awesome. Those are the memories you keep with you forever. :) Maybe someday I'll write a blog about love notes and drawing messages. Until then...Holla folks!

Those of you who know me, know that I've been through some shit in my life. I have a very special friend of mine that I've talked about several times, who has the gift of writing as well. She writes poetry and tonight she wrote a poem that touched me deeply. I am (with her permission), going to paste it to my site. So here goes.

I Got Flowers Today (Dedicated to Battered Women)

I got flowers today!
It wasn't my birthday or any other special day.
We had our first argument last night;
And he said a lot of cruel things that really hurt;
I know that he is sorry and didn’t mean to say the things he said;
Because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today.
It wasn't our anniversary or any other special day.
Last night, he threw me into a wall and started to choke me.
It seemed like a nightmare.
I couldn't believe that it was real.
I woke up this morning sore and bruised all over.
I know he must be sorry.
Because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today!
It wasn’t our anniversary or any other special day;
Last night he threw me into a wall and then started choking me;
It seemed unreal, a nightmare, but you wake up from nightmares;
And I woke up this morning sore and bruised all over—but I know he is sorry;
Because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today!
And it wasn’t Valentines Day or any other special day;
Last night he beat me and threatened to kill me;
Make-up and long sleeves didn’t hide the cuts and bruises this time;
I couldn’t go to work today because I didn’t want anyone to know—but I know he’s sorry;
Because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today!
And it wasn’t Mother’s Day or any other special day;
Last night he beat me again, and it was worse than all of the other times;
If I leave him, what will I do? How will I take care of the kids? What about money?
I’m afraid of him, but I’m too scared and dependent to leave him! But he must be sorry;
Because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today….
Today was a special day—it was the day of my funeral;
Last night he killed me;
If only I would have gathered the courage and strength to leave him;
I could have received help from the Women’s Shelter, but I didn’t ask for their help;
So I got flowers today—for the last time.

Author: Sapphire

Today's thought...Vacation is over. :^(

Just got home a couple days ago and I miss my mama fierce. It sucks living so far away from them! I hate it! And it's not where they live, Florida is an awesome place to visit and it would probably be an awesome place to live, but more importantly, my parents are there. 8^)

It was hard to leave this time around. My poor husband had to listen to me cry off and on for an hour after leaving and I'd already been crying all morning prior to our departure, but damn if I could help it. I think it was so hard this time because the last few years, with finances and such, we've seen each other less and less. It's hard with gas prices going up and bills and stuff and this time around we went damn close to a year of not seeing each other. Let me tell you, that sucked! Just saying.

We're getting back to normal here though I guess. Getting back into the groove of things, and it's kind of nice, but still very sad and frustrating. The baby had a ball while we were there and her daddy said it's not going to be another three years before we make it down again, so I'm definitely happy about that. Time will tell I guess. Until then though...Later!

Todays thought...random moments of hmmm.

Down in Florida for a much MUCH needed vacation at the parents. I miss my parents so bad and am so grateful for this opportunity to spend time with them. Little girl has had a massively learning vacation and it's been so nice to kick back and relax. I'm not going to want to go home when the time finally comes! LoL!

Also, recently I had a friend text me after something I'd stuck up for her for and said thanks. It made me think about what friendship means to me and having someone's back means. So I'm just gonna put it out there what it means to me. It means that if you are my friend, I will ALWAYS have your back, no matter who or what comes up against you, I am there with you fighting. It means that I don't care what decisions you make about your life or if I agree with them or not, because as your friend, it's not my place to tell you you're wrong. It's my place to love you no matter what choices you make in your life. That's not to say that if I don't agree I won't put my two cents in, but once I've said my piece, it will be the last time I say anything. But as your friend, it's a job that I want to do, to be there for you always, agreeing or not. Now if you ask my opinion on something, I will tell you, and if you take my advice great, if you don't, that's okay too. But if I don't agree with you, and I know that you're going to fall, then it's my job to be there and help you pick up the pieces. I will never tell you I told you so, I will never tell you that's what you get. I will always, always tell you, it's okay, I love you, you will be alright, I will help you through.

On another note, admittedly, I have NOT been racing yet this year! Oh my goodness I need to race so bad! We just haven't had the opportunity to get to the track, and man am I feeling it! Whew! Now grant you, I realize I can't race while I'm in a different state, but still, the fact is, I'm only missing one. But man oh man, when the one, is the third one of the season...grrr. LoL! I need to feel the wind in my hair, the cones under the tires...um...I mean...;-)

Well, that's about all for now. I need to update my little girls blog and get going this beautiful Tuesday morning with the fog clearing and the sun peaking through in sunny Florida. Holla!!!